Spock’s Poem.

I often hear of his journeys across the galaxies,

the tales of a creature that has travelled for centuries,

told over days, months and years on end,

but still the stories never come to an end.

He is no ordinary being, or so they say.

He can suffer no illness, nor simply wither away.

Some call him by his name but others dare not,

afraid of stuttering when their tongues try to utter what it cannot.

They speak only what they had been taught,

familiar vowels and syllables, easy for their minds to have caught.

It’s not much of a bother and he understands,

humans are quite fragile and their brains have yet to enhance.

Change could be quite difficult and maybe they just need a chance.

Time can change everything and (it looked like) time was all he had.

He was often lonely and the ache ate him inside,

but he knew he couldn’t show emotions, so it was only logical to hide.

For what was there for him to gain,

except perhaps even more excruciating pain?

Then the captain was suddenly gone and another was here,

so eager to explore, so eager to leave

see all that goes beyond his stratasphere.

And sentient life forms, even seemingly stoic Vulcans, can never resist those hazel greens,

nor the messy head of blond hair,

with one careless strand always slipping whenever he leans.

The alien is scared, afraid of what this means.

He knows he can never have him or even admit what he feels.

Purging his emotion is what he thinks he needs,

rid himself of compromise, wrap his heart and tightly seal.

*I removed the full version for personal reasons, you can message me for the link.

Together.

In case anyone wants it, or if they missed it, this is for you and our three beautiful moderators. ♥️
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Together is the sight of three,
Sunlight and yellow, warmth and glee.
A blinding sight that has yet to blind me,
but oh did that triplet of flesh and bones inspire me.

I saw her first, a beauty in black and white,
near the doors of a room
that soon after became a constant presence that looms.
And she whispered: “Don’t fright.”
“Don’t fright. The light will gather in a slight
and soon the roses shall always be in bloom.”

Next came the beauty in a dress colored blue,
She held her camera to the door and I could tell she was nervous,
but obviously excited too.
She held a bag full of bracelets that made us all delighted,
and as she took the photo of the stuttering mess
I knew I was despite my tries at being earnest,
I remember thinking “What a wonderful dress!”

Little did I know that when the shutters close one last time,
when my breakdowns are longer “I am fine.”
and when Morgana is a place to confine
and my fears are no longer sidelined
that she’d be my own shoreline,
and that I’d be thinking �“What a fucking bless!”

He, the confident Batman dressed in a suit,
so elegant and suave, with a smile that seems to beam.
A superhero, disguised as a human in pursuit
of everything that he dares to dream.
I recall enthusiasm, think Peter Parker meeting Tony Stark
then double by a thousand so you’ll have a glimpse
of the juniors knight in shining armour.

He says he wasn’t all that jazz back as a middle schooler,
he says he wasn’t as much of a charmer or a pinnacle of humor,
but I refuse to believe he wasn’t always this precious jewel,
or think of him as anything that isn’t quite this cool.

Together is the sight of three,
a journey of a seed that’s somehow turned into a tree.
All, a constant star, a-shining bright.
A talk of love, fears, hopes and loss,
emotions, dreams, stories of “othering” and us.

70 leaves of Mahogany,
each on a branch that holds them steady,
strengthened by a bond un-wavered by all.
Be it heat or be it cold,
be it rain or be it drought,
be it lava or be it snow,
the unity of the three roots will always fight them all.

Together is the sight of three,
2 girls and a boy in front of seventy three (73),
gathered around in a room that, for some reason, is called a C-P.
We try not to cry because we know the fears will no longer make us hinder,
and with the help of those friends,
It’ll never make us glow even slightly dimmer.
And the spirit of Juniors’19,
of the loud and passionate teens,
sitting here in CP Sixteen (16),
will never, ever not linger.

Together is the sight of three,
a saving grace, a miracle just for me.
Together is the sight of three,
everything and everyone I ever hope to be.”

Juniors’19
17.10.2018 – forever.T

Possibility of the Normal.

Why is everyone so offended by the fact that they might lead a “normal” life? Why has the idea of having a desk job, that could help you provide for yourself and live comfortably, become so frowned upon? More importantly, why are you judging those who want that normal life?

Your version of the said “normal” life implies that there’s no happiness whatsoever in it, that it’ll just be “dull and boring” ‘cause you’re not doing something that’s considered “cool”, “risky” or “exciting”.

Honestly, having a life where I’m financially stable and living with my family or those I love shouldn’t make me cringe.

Maybe sitting on a desk all day would make me complain, maybe I’ll have bad days where I’d hate it but I’d have them anywhere. So, I’ll just pick whatever job makes me happy, a job I’ll love no matter how much I curse it.

Edit: Normal isn’t mediocrity, normal isn’t uncreative and normal definitely isn’t failure.

Disclaimer: I don’t know what I wanna do with my life, I just don’t find the prospect of a normal life that unappealing anymore and I wanted to stress the fact that you shouldn’t shame those who truly want it.

Letter #2

Dear Bowie,

How do you tell someone you love that they’re always hurting you somehow, verbally or mentally? How do you tell them that, although you’re one of their favourite people on earth, they treat you like you’re not worth a penny? How? How do you tell them that they’re not your hero in this story anymore? How do you tell them that they’ve turned into your villain?

How do you explain to them the hundreds of times you’ve cried yourself to sleep because of them? How do you explain the countless nights you’ve spent worrying over them and never be given a decent explanation afterwards as to why they’re distancing themselves from you? How do you explain why you’ve started to take a step back too? How do you explain why’re not caring enough anymore? That you’re sick of this treatment, of being told you’ll never understand?

You don’t. You don’t tell, you don’t ask and you don’t explain. You just leave silently, a part of you after the other, until there’s nothing left of you.

All my love,

Salma.

Glass of Wine.

I was your perfect thing

Never even had a fling

16 with never-ending dreams

I’d never even smoked a cigarette then, 

But here I am wasting away, a pack of cigarettes a day.

You offered me some wine, 

I guess so we could pass the time. 

I’d never been drunk before

And It wasn’t cause of the wine.

I was the perfect thing, perfect daughter, perfect grades and perfect everything.

I took the glass, what could a harmless glass do to me? 

I drank, a little tipsy, you told me: “See, that wasn’t so bad, Brie!”

A couple of glasses, I was seeing you everywhere round the room. I got dizzy, the glass broke. 

Guess it’s not so harmless anymore.

Tom Petty, the heartbreaker. 

“Now I’m free, free fallin’.”

The first time I ever heard a Tom Petty song, it wasn’t even sung by Tom Petty! I was 12-13 ish, hunched over my laptop and pop culture obsessed, trying to see videos of Katy Perry’s new boyfriend: John Mayer. As soon as I found his YouTube channel, I started browsing and listening to all his famous hits. I was watching the ‘Slow dancing in a buring room’ video and a live version of Free Fallin’ was played short after.

At first, I didn’t pay much attention to the lyrics. I was busy watching Mayer singing and strumming his guitar with so much passion ; he looked and sounded as though the song meant the world to him and I was intrigued.

 I searched up the lyrics but once I did, I discovered that John was covering the famous Tom Petty song. I spent that entire night watching his videos and a whole lot of his concerts online, I was so hooked by the simple but soul touching lyrics. 


Free fallin’ was that song I listened to when things got heavy and I needed reassurance. When my dad passed away, I started thinking of myself as that “good girl” who’s crazy about Elvis, and I thought of my Dad as the “bad boy” who’s got my heart broken. 

It’s actually quite amusing since apparently you wrote the song to make Jeff Lyne laugh, yet all it does is make me fuzzy inside. I’ve had it on replay since I read the news, I cried by the 56th time or so. It’s quite hard to laugh today. 

Now almost 4 years after I came across that cover, you’ve gone and broken my heart too, Tom. 

I can’t say I’ve been your biggest or greatest fan, ’cause I wasn’t. However, I can say that I’ll always be grateful that you wrote Free Fallin’ and I’m forever glad I got to hear you and witness your wonderful, brilliant talent. 

Love you forever.

“and the good girls are home with broken hearts..”


Here’s the link to the John Mayer cover:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=20Ov0cDPZy8

And here’s the original Tom Petty Video:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1lWJXDG2i0A

A dance scene. 

I, probably along with few others in the world, have not danced once in my lifetime. So I thought about how I’d want it to go, and I came up with the most cliché scénario of them all and decided to write in down. Here it is:



But I don’t know how to dance!” she exclaimed loudly, as he swiftly swept her off her feet to the center of the fancy restaurant. “It doesn’t matter! I can teach you all I know..
He carefully placed her hands on his shoulders, and wrapped his own around the small of her waist. They swayed softly to the jazzy tunes of Sinatra’s ‘Something Stupid’. Her eyes were frantically searching, anticipating his next moves so that she wouldn’t make a fool of herself. He, however, was caught up watching her struggle with her steps to actually teach her anything.

Oops, sorry“, she’d say whenever she accidentally stepped on his foot. And with each apology, he’d hold her a little bit closer to his heart.

A song turned to two, and her tiny confidence grew. She stopped counting the steps, and she started looking up to him. She caught his blue eyes, so much different than her mousey brown ones. She had once promised her friend that she wouldn’t exaggerate when it came to her ‘silly’ sentiments; yet as they were swinging along, all she could think of was how she wouldn’t mind drowning in those ocean-like orbs. 

“See, you’ve already gotten the hang of it.” He whispered quietly, “It’s only a matter of time and you’ll be even better than I am!”

She giggled shyly, hiding her face in the corner of his neck and answered back: “Liar, liar, liar!”


Photo from the infamous movie, ‘Scent of a Woman.’

The fallen angel.

I thought you were an angel at first, one that needed protection and deserved the upmost perfection. That’s why I always made sure no one dared get close to you with harm, or even cross your path with ill thoughts. Afterwards, the only thing left with me was the notion of how I was not good enough for you, not remotely near your sky-high standards. So I set myself on a mission; a mission with the sole aim of pleasing you, of appealing to you. I started searching for ways to grab your attention for as long as possible, yet still my record stands at those damned 18 minutes. I figured it was my fault; I wasn’t trying hard enough or searching well enough. Months pass yet I’m still convinced I’ll be able to sway you more than the others, but I only ever manage to scrap the surface of your interest. It’s been almost a year, and you’re never there for me as I’m always there for you. I thought maybe if I distanced myself from you that maybe, just maybe, you’d realize how much I sacrificed and still endure for you. It’s quite naive honestly, how I hoped you’d somehow come to terms with that and magically appear on my doorstep. You didn’t though; you didn’t come knocking on my door, begging me to come back. No, you blamed good old me for loving you, for believing in you. You made it seem as though I was the villain, when all along I was a brainwashed, willing victim. 

I saw you again, just hours after deciding to leave you. My heart leaped a thousand beats a second when I saw you smile. I guess I can’t quit you after all.

Blue, White and Purple.

Blue. White. Purple.
Blue. White. Purple.                       Blue. White. Purple.

I repeat the pattern until my fingers ache, until I almost no longer remember it. It’s the only thing keeping me sane. 

Stop‘, they say, ‘Stop or you’ll weary your brain’. 

But,

“I have to carry on or else I’ll go insane”.

I repeat the pattern. 

Blue. White. Purple. 

Blue. White. Purple. 

Blue. White. Purple.

I repeat until it means nothing no more, till I wish I remembered why I was so unsure. My hands shake so bad I have to pause for just a minute and it all floods back as though it never left. I stare at my hands, willing them to stop but they don’t, they never do.

Blue. White. Purple.

Blue. White. Purple.

Blue. White. Purple.

I don’t care about my hands anymore. I have to get on with this, I gotta finish this, I must prove them wrong and I should be strong. I clutch the colors harder, I can’t let them slip away further. Not like everyone else.

Blue. White. Purple.

Blue. White. Purple. 

Blue. White. Purple.

I’m tired, so tired. I don’t wanna try anymore. I don’t care, I don’t care if I go insane tonight. I think I’ll just huddle by moonlight. 

Some Might Say

‪Some might say we’ll end up together. Some might say we were meant to be, but some might say it’s all a lie and you’ve left me all alone to die. ‬‪

So honey, should I listen or should I cry? Should i fight or should I fly? Should I sleep and just move on?‬

‪Days pass and still you’re gone.‬

‪Am I naive for holding on? ‬

‪I catch your eye one last time,‬

‪I dunno why you can’t be mine.‬

‪Some might say we had it all, some might say it was worth the fall‬.

‪Yet I guess the word gets by, and the truth gets buried alive. ‬

‪I heard you made your own way (through the crowded highway), with all your dreams set aside and me cast away. ‬

‪Some might say you’re a shooting star. Some might say you’ve gone too far. Some might say you’ll settle down, but even then, you’ll never be around.‬

Note: I wrote this while watching Oasis’ documentary ‘Oasis:Supersonic’, where the song ‘Some Might  Say’ was mentioned. I was inspired by the title, however this has no relation to the song or the band. I’d advise you to checkout their song though, as well as its B-side ‘Talk Tonight’. 

These ‘Lyrics’ weren’t meant to be so, but I rhymed so why not? It’s a little cringey for some, but I really like it. I’d appreciate any comments!